I disabled comments yea, I'm really not asking for any fake sympathy or just sympathy in general so PLEASE do NOT note me either.
I just wasn't in the mood for any other art so hence the vent art.
EDIT: 12/31/12- Morning after submission. (I deleted the small one from yesterday)
Alright, well here's Sen. I made a speedpaint but it has so many weird pauses I'm in no mood whatsoever to post it atm.
It's a years old problem and has gotten progressively worst. Not it's not about me, I don't have anything like aspergers as some asked or anything that physically or mentally has to do with me.
It's a big issue who few people know of as I've had the trust to tell them and comfort.
I'm not going to talk about it nor do I want any questions regarding the main issue because it'll be both offensive and disrespectful for those just poking around out of curiosity.
The smaller part of the problem is loneliness in school. I've tried to ignore the fact that I have no friends nor anyone but now since the bigger problem has gotten worse, it's become almost second nature for me to want to vent everything out to someone and that's not a privilege I have at the moment.
Not to mention people wanting to be my friend for my art both virtually and real sometimes. I find it the most childish and inconsiderate thing to just walk up to someone and ask if 'we could be friends' without knowing a thing about the person. It's a very awkward question for me and I never approach anyone in quite the same manner so it really unnerves me when someone just takes me at face value and asks to be my friend. Sure I'll talk to you, doesn't mean you're going to be my real friend.
I guess I have to mention Matt and Katie. A huge thank you to them. For last night too.
But really, things are just tough and the constant stress of having to reply to everything on dA and hiding my vents behind a happy attitude really just worsens it. It can't be possible for me to take a hiatus since I find art too much of an enjoyment. But although I may seem happy and face value and I won't deny it's partially my fault no one ever catches on I'm upset because I do admit I've had plenty of practice pretending to be happy and cheerful.
I just want to put it out there that out of all the happiness that surrounds you, there's always going to be a dark side to some of it.
Anyway, I don't really like this except for the eyes, aha. The rest is just awkward and I had no motivation to really fix the fur once I had realized my errors. So.. yea, enjoy~
Character © Capukat|Me
Art © Capukat|Me
Wacom Bamboo Capture CTH 470
Paint Tool SAI: 3 1/2